Just how does one go about beating Stupid out of your life?
It is evident that my Latest-Ex-Crush (henceforth referred to as Lec) still does not look upon me in any light beyond platonic, and most likely will not in the foreseeable future. Even I can recognize that. And yet, I allow myself to dance along the edge of the "proximity-infatuation" trap. This is beyond crap, really. I've friends with serious relationship crises in their lives and I'm creating drama for myself?
Ok. Less Alexandre Desplat & Carter Burwell for now.
I find that since my birthday, I seem to be looking upon Charles' case in a more favourable light. Who says flattery gets you no where? Vanity aside, he seems nice, responsible, and plays the gentleman rather well. More importantly, he is a Christian, and he has clearly expressed his interest in me (although not to me personally). So what's the hold up? Its not coming naturally, at least from my end. When I do make a move, its with a conscious effort and not spontaneously forthcoming. Am I just over-dramatizing? Or I've just woven myself into some anti-relating cocoon which I only attempt getting out of for people who turn out not to be worth the effort?
It is evident that my Latest-Ex-Crush (henceforth referred to as Lec) still does not look upon me in any light beyond platonic, and most likely will not in the foreseeable future. Even I can recognize that. And yet, I allow myself to dance along the edge of the "proximity-infatuation" trap. This is beyond crap, really. I've friends with serious relationship crises in their lives and I'm creating drama for myself?
Ok. Less Alexandre Desplat & Carter Burwell for now.
I find that since my birthday, I seem to be looking upon Charles' case in a more favourable light. Who says flattery gets you no where? Vanity aside, he seems nice, responsible, and plays the gentleman rather well. More importantly, he is a Christian, and he has clearly expressed his interest in me (although not to me personally). So what's the hold up? Its not coming naturally, at least from my end. When I do make a move, its with a conscious effort and not spontaneously forthcoming. Am I just over-dramatizing? Or I've just woven myself into some anti-relating cocoon which I only attempt getting out of for people who turn out not to be worth the effort?
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